You really shouldn't be here

Reflections on the water,
I share with you on my blank paper..

I call out your name as if, I don't know you..
Or I had you replaced...
Were you real and were you here
What is this feeling that I fear...

I need you
Near me now
I never knew
Just how..
you're a part of me..
and all I am

Never been more in the dark,
never been this scared..
Never was so uncertain what to do, or speak
I've never been so alone
I've never been without you,
I've never had more than I could, keep...

I need to fucking stop bleeding tears.
ITS TIME .To. stop