I still can't quite get over the fact that you're gone. gone, left me to a better place they call, Heaven.I talked to you, played with you. I confide all my problems to you. You were my sole listening ear when i was outcast in primay school, out of love in secondary school & any problems I had, up till this very day, your presence, it comforts me.....
I don't know what to say right now.. tears can't help but steam down my face. I thought I'd feel better blogging this entry a few days after you've left. But Coco, I'm not feeling any better...:8(Where can I find you the next time I need to talk to you? to talk all my sorrows out? where will you be? please answer me......
I woke up last saturday morning to find you all weak and lethergic. I'm sorry I stayed out all night and neglected you. 
I spend all I had. Ran around finding anything they offer in pet stores hoping that it'll cure you, hoping that you'd feel better....
But your condition never improved. I had no choice but to send you to the Vet nearby our house, Only to realise that you're at your final stage of Stomach tumor.
I was devastated. I cried my heart out. Until the vet told me to remain positive, to motivate you so you'd feel better. My heartached so bad.. Could you hear me?
Coco, I'm extremely sorry. Sorry I failed as your owner. Sorry I failed so much to have not notice how bad your health has deteriorated. I didn't read the signs. If I found out earlier, you would not be gone now. They'd cure you. its all. my.fault..
your last few days, We made sure you were clean. I was afraid you'd get uncomfortable so I made sure I washed you regularly..
Baby, you don't bathe the past 10 years of your bunny life, You were struggling so bad, I was so afraid you'd slip out of my hands and hurt yourself...
You looked just like a baby, reminded me of the first time I carried you home.
you loved my bed and you lay there refusing to even let me carry you back to your comfyzone..
If I brought you back the good times that we've spent together, would you remember? 
The times you don't need me to clean your sparking white fur...
Those were the days that you spend all your time in the grass soaking your paws with mud and then running into the house with your mud soaked paws staining all the carpets with your mudprints, yet confidently lying on the carpet, where Mummy will always be the one there to give you a good hard spanking..
I even took Videos of you munching your yummy vege up!
You, never fail to brighten me up.
You'd be sorely missed by everyone of us in the family. We love you Coco. We love you so very much.
The night before you bit me, you remembered me telling you about my dream? My dream that you ran away and Lil Bro and I had to chase after you, and you went in to the jungle behind our place. There, you met many of you other bunny friends...
Many colours.. Black, Grey, White
Lil bro and I tried catching you.. But to no avail. You scattered off with the rest of your friends and we never caught you...
When I told Mummy the next morning. She told me that You were telling me in my dreams that you wanted me to set you free. Were you suffering Coco darling. Weren't you? :(
Was I being too selfish? : ( I should have let the vet put you to sleep that verymoment they found out that you couldn't respond to any medication anymore. But I was too scared... I didn't want to let you go..
I brought you out on saturday night, 27th September 2008.
You were next to me the whole night.
I went drinking at Cuppage along with you. And you Seemed to enjoy the night so much.
You got to know everyone of my friends better the last days of your life....
Your eyes started to open a lil..
And no matter how many times Brent and i pushed your ears down, it just won't stop standing up. Its almost like you wanted to hear my voice before you'd leave peacefully:(
On Sunday morning, the morning before you left.. Mummy said your ears we up so high, listening to her as she was talking to me by the bed side. Your ears we up all morning baby!
You bite me, because you wanted me to remember you.
Your ears were up throughout the whole night on saturday, because you wanted to hear me for one, last time...
You left peacefully the next day, because you're finally satisfied that you finally spend the whole of saturday with me, and you could leave in peace.
Am i right Coco , am i right?.......: (
I'll miss smelling this musky smell of yours... : (
Your bushy fat fuffy tail...
your bunny paws...
This is the exact paws that I had to cut when you were just so little...
You had nail stuck into your bunny feets. And you were so pain I almost thought you were going to leave me: (
I took a sissors and pulled the nail out, do you remember? : )
The mark, is still there: )
I'll miss your twitching whiskles..
Your eyes, were the brightest of all the colours..
Your bunny teeth, were the cleanest set i've ever seen : )
I loved your long warm tongue when you sit close to me and start licking me to make me feel better: )
The night before, Porky and i were cleaning you when you started crawling... Both of us thought you were getting better.. but...
After you passed on...
I was bawling my eyes out. I was afraid you'd hear me..
"Dear God, one of my greatest friend has left me. A soulmate, a wonderful companion and a confidente. Coco's really aggressive. She's extremely terrirorial. She tends to be closer to human than her fellow kind.
Please take good care of her in bunny heaven. Keep her safe and allow her to open up to make new friends. I know that I'd be seeing her real soon. I'd miss you Coco. So very much: (
Keep her safe, with you dear lord, till the day we reunite. Remind her of me. So she wouldn't forget me till then. : (
Amen"
I know you're in a better place, But I wish that I could see your face, I know you're where you need to be...
Even though it's not here with me...
I'll miss you.
You gave me the sign, the sign I've been asking you to show me so I'd know that you're in safe hands.. : )
I saw A bunny cloud after I said the short prayer. It looked just like the way you are when you're resting, before you turn immobile..
I feel comforted Coco, I really felt so much better : )
Pictures are all I have left to remember you:( Come into my dreams more often so i'll not go crazy missing you so much. I wanna smell your forehead so very badly... Do you know I let Baibai out to the backyard last night, he kept digging non stop at the spot where I burried you
: ( He misses you Coco, We all do.
Take good care of yourself in Bunny heaven. Not too much carrots. you know that your stomach can't take too much liquid food. You better not fight anymore : ( Cause no one will be there to nurse your blood soaked ears and remember you scar okay : (
You'll be here in my heart, always.
R.I.P
all the love in the world;
always and forever
your loving owner,
C
ps: Thanks for those who were here supporting me giving me the strength to fight on. If not for you, Coco wouldn't have been able to go this far..
My family( Mum, Dad, Hong, Ivan, Tammie) Porky,Ky, Baby, Baby's family, Lenz, Irwan, Gerard, Kiang, Paul( for your always so sensible advice) ShaunBoy, Nelly, Bestie.
To the many others, much thanks. Deeply Appreciated.
