You really shouldn't be here

Dear you,

Its been the 3rd night now that I’ve dreamt of you.. Its wrong and every inch of me feels fucking fucked up to ever still harbor any thoughts of you. I can’t get to sleep & I don’t want to. Despite having to wake in 2 hours time, I don’t even want to close my eyes… I don’t want YOU clouding up my mind….
I miss you. I really do. I miss you talking shit to me. I miss you making me laugh. I miss you texting me.. I miss you calling me all fat names..
I miss calling you fat fuck :( &I miss talking shit to you too....
I KNOW I SHOULDN’T HAVE FELT THIS WAY………………………………………..
NOT LIKE I SHOULD EVEN BE TYPING ALL MY SHIT THOUGHTS NOW…............................
FUCK IT.. FUCK FUCK FUCK IT....................

:(